m.l.k. day blog

i have been feeling very depressed, and this is not me being dramatic. when i say depressed, i don't mean that i feel a little blue. i mean that i feel like everything i do is a mistake and that it would be for the best if i never got out of bed. i never want to do anything.
but, i went to the oregon coast this weekend and nobody can be depressed long when there are waves and sunshine (!) and rainbows about. on the way to the beach, me and tiffany and linda had some random adventures at the spirit mountain casino. we got stopped by a security card who checked our i.d.'s, but i'm pretty sure he was just checking us out becuase we were the only people under the age of 50.
the next morning, we went exploring on the beach. i love scrambing up rocks and out running waves and letting the wind spray on my face as i pretend that i am kate from lost. it was pretty surreal. at one point we found this section of beach that was entirely covered in foam. weird, yellow, quivering mounds of foam. it looked like a japanese art project. i took a stick and poked at the foam for a very long time.
i have to go back to school tomorrow and i think i will make it. hopefully.
i just read through some really old e-mails, and i am reminded again of how i can't keep friends for the life of me.
if i didn't have family, i don't know what i would do.