tis so sweet

i can't get this phrase out of my head: o, for grace to trust him more.
this is very applicable to my life right now.
i don't really have anything to blog about today. except for maybe my co-workers. i am always in for a nice dose of reality after working with non-bible college-y people for 8 hours straight.
jonathan is my gay co-worker. i have always had an affinity for gay co-workers. jonathan is no exception. he is 23, and from medford (also commonly known as "methford") oregon. up until yesterday morning he lived in an apartment with his boyfriend.
i guess his boyfriend spent the night with another guy. i was sitting in the back room calmly eating my chonga bagel when johnny started to spill it all out.
i also seem to have an affinity with people who need to vent. or maybe just people who need professional help. this comes with being a librarian. but that is a whole other blog in of itself. back to business:
jonathan (or "johnny boy", as i like to call him) told me of his heartbreak, and that he was over jeff (the said boyfriend). he was genuinly sad, as only a person can be after they have decided to break up with their signifigant other. jonathan looked at me, sighed morosely, and then said:
"man, i have to find somebody to sleep with today."
this is what they don't prepare you for in bible college. but honestly, i gave him advice like i would give anyone advice. i cautioned him to look at the long-term consequences of his actions (i feel like i have said this exact same thing to 11 people in this last week alone).
i know i write about loneliness alot, but bear with me.
there is a sickness going around. it is rooted in isolation from god, but it shows up in our minds and hearts as the seemingly mundane ache of loneliness. don't buy into it.
jesus, jesus, precious jesus. o for grace to trust you more.

if i had a soapbox, i would climb onto it and scream at the top of my lungs:
can we all just hold out?
can we turn back to the one for whom we are all so lonesome for?

well, to wrap up this here story, me and melissa went to college group with jonathan tonight. he was scared out of his mind.
christ was, and is, and will continue to be talking to him. i feel it in my bones.
i am priveleged to see god in action in this boy's life.